It's past 10, Valentine's Day... I'm still waiting for a date. I called an escort service (with innocent-dinner-date-only intentions,) but they said they were all booked, so then I tracked down some high-schoolers, but they were having a "Call of Duty" gaming night, so then I tried the AA meeting down the block, but most of them are married, and besides, they canceled due to the romantic holiday - finally I got a hold of someone at the senior citizen center, but all of the other single women in town had been one step ahead of me, leaving me... dateless. Truthfully speaking though, I've never had a Valentine's Date. Well, my friend Rachel and I went out a few years back, just to have fun, and given we were both girls out on the town on such a holiday in San Francisco, people assumed, so that sort of counted. Otherwise, the closest I got was 6th grade... but, my boyfriend at the time and I broke up the day before, and he ended up giving my flowers to the girl we broke up over. Tragic.
So what did I really do to ring in the day?
Watched a lot of Olympics, went to the gym, played with the dogs, worked on a song, spent hours I can never get back on facebook, and then had to last-minute watch some kids so that their parents could enjoy a 'couple's dinner party'. Had I been able to have the night to myself, I would have ended the evening watching horror movies with a bottle of Merlot, (and I never watch horror movies.)
I'm exaggerating my bitterness of course. Positive things about this year's holiday? Valentine's Day the movie - which I'm sorry if you've seen it and you hated it, but I actually really liked it, and found it, in an odd way, refreshing. Go figure.
Anyways. I noticed as I logged on, that my last post was a month ago. I don't really know who reads this (though my followers have doubled, ha, from 2 to a rousing 4, Thank You,) but, to all of those who check this thing, I apologize for keeping you in steady suspense as to the currently uneventful happenings of my life these past 4+ weeks. I can't say that anything spectacular has happened. I did recently write and post a new song on my myspace, called "The Get Get Go." It will enlighten you to the place I'm in right now, feeling slightly trapped, and just wanting to get on to the next thing. But, despite my wishes for a better physical location, I'm content, knowing and accepting that things take time.
I also recently got the photos back from my latest photo shoot with Paco and Betty. Which, by the way, you should take the time to check out their website: http://www.pacoandbetty.com.
What's next though?
Well, I go to Vegas Wednesday. I've never actually been. I've driven through, but not experienced it, if you will. My goals? To get drunkenly-married to a stranger, and win a million dollars counting cards. No, not really. I am excited though, to see the place, given it's reputation, good and bad. I'm actually going to take a hand-gun training course with my dad. Now, for those of you opposed to guns, please know that I DO NOT promote gun violence in any way, and don't even own a gun. I just used to go hunting with my dad when I was much younger (I lived in Alaska, come on,) and it was a bonding thing for us. Well, minus the time I shot a rabbit in the face, and silently cried to myself for the next day, I mean my parents ate it, but I was 11, it was traumatic. Anyways, for whatever reason I'm in Vegas, I know it'll be fun, and just the break I need.
Well, that's about all these little fingers feel up to typing out. I do enjoy our times together though. After blogging, I always feel convinced I'm going to make these things more frequently, with plans in the back of my mind to assign a 'blogging night a week,' but realistically speaking, it'll probably be another month before I write again. What can I say? My life is just slow right now, which isn't entirely bad, it just means there's not a wide variety of stuff to share. It's been amazing though, in many ways, to come out into the middle of the country, and get a breath. In San Francisco, everything was moving so fast, people rush, at grocery stores, on the sidewalks, you name it. I love it, I miss it, but sometimes, it's nice to just... slow down, breathe, reflect, reconnect with the part of yourself that gets lost in busyness. For me at least, that's been a positive part of this experience so far.
Well, my best to all of you. Despite my earlier ranting, I do hope that today, you felt loved. Maybe not romantically, but in some way, from someone, you felt seen, appreciated, and loved, because you are remarkable, just as yourself - individual, unique, and rare, as nobody else can be you or impact the world in the ways that you can.
All my Love.
Audrey Ebbs.
And.... Happy Valentine's Day.
Well, that's about all these little fingers feel up to typing out. I do enjoy our times together though. After blogging, I always feel convinced I'm going to make these things more frequently, with plans in the back of my mind to assign a 'blogging night a week,' but realistically speaking, it'll probably be another month before I write again. What can I say? My life is just slow right now, which isn't entirely bad, it just means there's not a wide variety of stuff to share. It's been amazing though, in many ways, to come out into the middle of the country, and get a breath. In San Francisco, everything was moving so fast, people rush, at grocery stores, on the sidewalks, you name it. I love it, I miss it, but sometimes, it's nice to just... slow down, breathe, reflect, reconnect with the part of yourself that gets lost in busyness. For me at least, that's been a positive part of this experience so far.
Well, my best to all of you. Despite my earlier ranting, I do hope that today, you felt loved. Maybe not romantically, but in some way, from someone, you felt seen, appreciated, and loved, because you are remarkable, just as yourself - individual, unique, and rare, as nobody else can be you or impact the world in the ways that you can.
All my Love.
Audrey Ebbs.
And.... Happy Valentine's Day.
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